This is how I responded to her:
Over the last several years the communion liturgy has really increased in significance to me, to the point that today I cannot receive communion without weeping. I’m worshiping now in a church where each individual leaves his or her seat and approaches the altar to receive (unlike my Baptist tradition, where the norm is to have it delivered to you in your seat), and where we celebrate communion at every worship service (the norm in my tradition being monthly or quarterly). I’ve found there is something so powerful in walking toward that sacred place each Sunday as a whole person, hiding nothing, unafraid and unashamed, knowing that I will truly be received “just as I am.” Thinking about it as I write makes me realize that I imagine God there, smiling at me, ushering me forward and into a supernatural intimacy with him that is beyond my words to describe. The experience nourishes something important in me, such that I can’t imagine going back to a less regular observance of the sacrament.
My understanding of what separates me (or what once separated me) from God has also changed in profound ways. Before I came to terms with my trans-ness, I imagined that I could draw significantly closer to him if I would just overcome my desire to be a woman. Now, having realized that my femininity never was a barrier between us, I’ve also learned that there was never really any action I could have undertaken that would have drawn me closer to him in any significant way. Only God is able to make up the distance between God and humanity, and he has made it up, “once for all,” in Christ.
All this has made me feel closer to God than I ever thought possible. In fact, it has completely altered my paradigm of proximity to the divine. Finally I think I understand–and really believe–what Paul meant when he said, “Neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord” (Rom 8:38-39).